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Eliza's avatar

just noticed no tbc at the end of this, i'm gonna miss this series! it's such a pleasure to read what you write, hoping more interesting funny and weird stuff to read!!

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Maudite femmelette's avatar

oh no its not over yet haha this was just a ramble unrelated to the chronological series, but i integrated it bc its still related

thank you very much for your interest <3 <3 <3

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Eliza's avatar

omg its not ending?? lesssgoooo

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Maudite femmelette's avatar

Aragon said « il n’y a pas d’amour heureux » 🙁. Incels are ashamed to ask for love and intimacy, anger and cynicism is more cathartic and ego protective. Not all incels though. There’s the sad and there’s the angry.

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I've never been worried about my virginity, amphetamines made me hypersexual and I was very hurt and lonely. Had I not been on them at the time, I wouldnt've done any of the things I've done while on them. I've always known sex without intimacy isn't for me, but in those conditions, I was able to content myself with loveless sex, if it meant I could get affection/desire more easily. (didn't work, as you've seen)

But yes isolation and intimacy anorexia were there before and after that, and I still struggle with both.

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😭 thank you for your kind words ♥️♥️♥️

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